1903 Singer Treadle Sewing Machine
image from Quilting Board
"Why'd she die?" the child asked from her perch on the treadle below her great grandmother's sewing machine.
Her mother laid a silky, white slip into a box marked donations. "She just did, Honey."
The child rocked back and forth on the treadle, singing softly to herself, "Out of my window, looking in the night." She stopped rocking. "Am I gonna die?"
"Of course not. GG was old. You're not quite four." The mother laid a fuzzy, pink robe on the bed. It smelled faintly of gardenias, her grandmother's favorite flowers. An early spring scent from the old woman's childhood home.
The mother remembered rocking on that same treadle when she was small. Her Granny hadn't sewn on it in years. Not since Pap bought her the electric sewing machine. She hadn't used that one for years either. Not since Pap died. She might as well sell the electric one. Nobody in the family sewed any more. But she'd keep the old treadle machine.
The child resumed her rocking and singing. "I could see the barges flickering light. Silently flows the river to the sea. And the barges, too, go silently." She stopped singing. "What's a barge?"
"It's a kind of boat. Your GG lived by a great big river when she was little like you. And she could see the barges from her front porch. She used to sing that song to me when I was little."
"Did GG go to heaven on a barge?"
"Go to heaven?"
"That's what Auntie Lily said. She said GG went to heaven and she's never coming back."
"On a barge?" The mother sat on the edge of the bed. "Come out from under there." She gathered the child into her lap, taking up the song herself, "Barges I would like to go with you. I would like to sail the ocean blue."
She kissed the top of the little girl's head. The child smelled fresh and clean, still damp from her bath. "Maybe your GG did go to heaven on a barge. That would be just like her."
The child leaned away from her mother to see her better. "Momma, you're old."
The mother laughed.
Still serious, the child searched her mother's face. "I don't want you to go on a barge."

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